Paradoxical

When we picked Carson up we were not told much, but we were told he has family, probably aunties, that would most likely be able to take over guardianship.  But we have no idea how long he will be with us, could be weeks, could be months.  We are expecting reunification with the birth family, but we also thought we were going to pick him up on Friday, not Thursday.  So, we are going with the flow and providing a safe, stable, and loving home for him as long as he needs it.

We are continually experiencing and growing in so many ways.  We didn't realize how paradoxical foster parenting can be.  We were excited to see 2 years of trying to be foster parents come to fruition and we were excited to meet Carson, but at the same time we were/are sad for Carson and his family.  We feel some anger and judgment towards his parents for not proving a safe and secure environment for him, but then we have compassion as we speak with his mother over the phone.  One thing is for sure, we want what's best for Carson and we know that reunifying him to his parents, as long as it is safe and stable, is the absolute best for him.  So even though we are becoming attached to this precious guy, we pray each day that he would be able to be reunified with his family.