We spent the holidays on the edge of our seats waiting for the phone call that Carson was going to be placed with extended family. Being an Emergency Placement means they try to find kin to place the child with while his parents essentially, get their act together. That way, if his parents are unable to care for him in the long-term, he will still be with family.
Anyway, they had kin lined up to take him in and we were just waiting for them to be officially approved on paper. We didn't think Carson would be with us through Thanksgiving and he was! And even more so, we didn't think he would be with us through Christmas. We had his bags all packed except some toys and clothes. Every time the phone rang our hearts beat a little faster. But Christmas and New Year's came and went and Carson was still a part of the family.
Turns out the extended family placement didn't work out and he is going to be with us until his parents can reunify. If they cannot reunify, we will be given "first dibs" on adopting him.
It is difficult to prepare yourself for something so emotional and then have it change directions and reset your emotions and thoughts on another path. Don't misunderstand us, we liked the decision very much, to have Carson stay with us for a little longer; but it was still difficult because new questions and new future stresses and tensions began to arise on the horizon. It was going to be difficult saying good-bye after 2-3 months but now 6-12 months or more, that is almost unfathomable!
But each time we see him grow and learn and just be who he was created to be, it makes the unfathomable completely and utterly worth every attachment we string together between our lives. And in the end, whether he stays or goes, there will be beautiful music playing between all those strings that only God could have created.
0 comments :
Post a Comment